Last year Ali Edwards introduced us the concept of One word – the one word that spoke to you and summed up something about yourself or your life that you wanted to focus on. Mine last year was Happy – and that was a great word.
This year at the same point, I was thinking and thinking and thinking. Nothing really spoke to me. There was a lot that I wanted to “define” me and focus on over the year. But nothing that captured the essence of what I wanted in one word.
This morning it came to me. In the shower of all places. The place itself is not really that surprising – I tend to wake up and collect my thoughts for the day into some sort of order. But considering I wasn’t even aware that I was thinking on these things, I was stunned at how the word just coalesced and hit me right between the eyes. Discipline.
And no peoples, not that kind! Get your lovely minds out of the gutter!! 😆
At the beginning of the year I went through what I describe as a mini-breakdown. Thanks to good friends, one in particular who caught me right at the starting point, I have been put back on the right track and getting things back into order and under some sort of control. Going through some therapy several items have been focused on. Primarily the concept of refeulling myself so that I can continue to be there for those that need me. Essentially my “tank” ran out – and had probably been running on empty for quite some time.
With that as background, the last few months I have been re-establishing routines. Things that need to become routine. Things I realise that I’m not so good at ensuring do become routine. Things like exercise, eating well, study, housework, setting up systems so that I have support, ohhhh and endless others. What I am good at is getting caught up in stuff that is fun, that I enjoy, or that I simply do in order to avoid those things I need to do.
There’s also a BOM prompt over at SE along the lines of name one thing you would like to change about yourself. The month is almost up.
I wonder if it was that in the end that helped gel my subconcious into gear. Whatever it was, there is a word for me this year. That word is Discipline.